Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Hospital Visit

So....As you all know I am very sick with this pregnancy. I rarely keep anything down, whether food or drink. If I do it takes so much work. I do have some enzymes and they help me keep the food down, but an hour or so later my stomach is hurting so much and I can't take more because then I'll just throw them up. Nothing else comes close to working...tums, rolaids, maalox, pepto bismol, phenegran, zofran, benedryl, unisom...all which have been given for me to use.
So the doctor says if you don't keep food down for 12 hours go to the ER. The same goes with drink. I have had many days when I thought I should have gone but...what are they really gonna do.
I finally got to my breaking point this morning. I can't take it anymore. So I go to the Clovis ER. expecting a miracle or direction. I go get triaged (down 5 more lbs...oooh bad) and then get settled into my own cubicle. They attach me to an IV and run the gambit of tests to make sure that my sickness hasn't affected the baby.
They gave me a whole liter of saline to hydrate me and a dose of Zofran to help with nausea. (Made me sleepy, still nauseous, and then a major headache when I got home). While I'm being filled up I asked my nurse..what next? Do I just go home and come back in 12 hours when I am still not keeping anything down...Is there a point to any of this? Can they do anything for me? Why would me doc send me here just for this. This is silly. She says just to go home and call my doc.
What now? Spend money going back and forth from home to ER? Yeah right. So does this mean that when I haven't been keeping anything down I just suck it up? Why would I go to the ER just to waste their time? I felt absolutely ridiculous taking up a bed when there could be someone seriously sick waiting for my IV to finish.
I'm just so frustrated. And to top it all the Fair is in town. DO you know how bad I want to go? Here is my list..a corn dog, a funnel cake with strawberries and whipped cream, a churro, pink popcorn, cotton candy, a taste of whatever Marc gets, oh and whatever else I crave.
I wish my sickness would just go away. I think 7 weeks of this is quite enough. You can only be tough for so long. I am loosing my will. All I do when I feel bad is cry. It is the worst. I only hope that I don't pass this on to my children. I do not wish this on anyone. Please let there be something that works.